Synopsis "Light In My Mourning: Volume 3 Lead Kindly Light (in English)"
There's something about taking off on a road trip and driving through unpopulated country that gives Celestia a nice, airy feeling. There's an illusion of having left her cares behind her, even if they will be greeting her again when she returns home. Six of her twelve kids plus a three-year-old granddaughter are living in her house, and things are a little chaotic right now. Just over six weeks ago, her husband of thirty years, and their two-year-old foster child, Jonny, were killed in a freak accident involving a tractor that flipped over. Celestia felt like she'd also been crushed under that tractor; but like a zombie, she could still walk around-a fact which surprised her. People kept saying how well she seemed to be doing; so, unlike a zombie, she figures she must have looked OK on the outside. Growing up on a homestead in the Alaskan wilderness, she came to believe that she had to take care of herself without bothering anybody else. She was by nature a somewhat solitary child and quite fearless. Once, when she was about five, she was skipping joyfully along a path when, rounding a clump of bushes, she encountered a very large bear busily tearing up a rotten log with its huge claws. She froze in her tracks, spun around and high-tailed it back to the cabin; surprised at how fast she could fly over the ground. This somewhat cocky attitude that she could-and she must-do things on her own, was reinforced when she was nine years old and her father was killed when his plane fell out of the sky. Like others around her, she was in shock, but she didn't let herself cry. And she didn't talk about it.She hadn't changed all that much since she was a little girl. When Dell and Jonny were killed, she was stunned almost senseless-but she kept her feelings to herself. And she just took off running. She had a family to support and three suddenly fatherless boys to get raised and launched into the world. It would not be an easy task.
